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music…you keep my love growing

April 16, 2014

Junip (Jose Gaonzalez’s newest venture) – Suddenly…….. you keep my love growing, you keep my heart calling…



This one’s for the dancing times…… Azealia Banks – ATM Jam Ft Pharrell



blood moon mania no more.

April 9, 2014

One week from the total lunar eclipse/the Blood Moon and tension/energy is high within and without -

“Mercury is now in Aries, helping to fire up the mental energies and encourage action or the pursuit of new ways, ideas, paths and possibilities. Confident communication is possible when you realize you can choose to grow rather than say you can’t.’” (mysticmamma)


be brave. be free.

April 2, 2014

A wise man once praised the virtues of witnessing the workings of our minds, thoughts and emotions.  BKS Iyengar’s stern and encouraging voice booms inside my head whenever I think about persistant effort and dedication as the only path to changing samskara or habits and reactions.

“You cannot hope to experience inner peace or freedom without understanding the workings of your mind and of human consciousness in general. All behavior both constructive and deconstructive is dependent on our thoughts. By understanding how our thinking works, we discover nothing less than the very secrets of human psychology. With this right perception and understanding of our minds, the door opens to our liberation, as we go through the veil of illusion into the bright day of clarity and wisdom. The study of mind and consciousness, therefore, lies at the heart of yoga.” (Iyengar)

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It all sounds easy: watch your mind and you will gain an understanding of all that you are and life will improve. Honestly, this technique of allowing myself to feel and acknowledge my thoughts and patterns is draining. It seems self-centred. Too, there is pain in realizing the drone of many thought patterns. It doesn’t feel great to admit how much time has been lost in obsessive thoughts or dwelling in anger.

Identifying emotions and reactions and triggers has got me feeling blue and defeated. Why do I choose this gruelling method of coping and why do I wholeheartedly encourage others to use it as well? Because, at the same time as feeling defeated, I surprisingly do not feel bound. I don’t live in a glass case of emotion. Anymore.

I used to be in denial. I’m starting to see how denial held me… And as life does – things fell apart and then they came together again. Only, on one blessed instance of these dramatic waves, I chose to look within and work on changing myself. No more blaming, no more resentments, no more drama. The name of my new game is “Radical Acceptance” as coined by Tara Brach. Iyengar speaks to the process of creating change in a rational way and Brach supports the heart through it all.

Living in the present moment and in immediate feelings, without stories or justifications, requires radical acceptance. It is radical to accept our circumstances because the tendency of the mind and ego is to pine for the future or the past or for something different. It is radical to change our habits so drastically but it is worth it. We begin to see how quickly our feelings shift. Our thoughts shift. The weather shifts. Relationships shift. The reality is that nothing is constant. In radical acceptance of this constant motion, I realize I’m not in control of anything but my own reactions. Now that is a happy and empowering discovery.

I do not want to remain stuck in one place, in one state of mind and being, so the way out is in honouring flux, evolution and growth. Part of this cycle of growth is exhaustion and questioning.

I simply hear it. I watch it. I feel it. And in an instant, it vanishes. Leaving me lighter and freer.


“The process of becoming unstuck requires tremendous bravery, because basically we are completely changing our way of perceiving reality, like changing our DNA. We are undoing a pattern….we’re naturally going to have withdrawal symptoms – withdrawal from always thinking that there’s a problem and that someone, somewhere needs to fix it.

The middle way is wide open, but it’s tough going, because it goes against the grain of an ancient neurotic pattern that we all share. When we feel lonely, when we feel hopeless, what we want to do is move to the right or the left. We don’t want to sit and feel what we feel. We don’t want to go through the detox. Yet the middle way encourages us to do just that. It encourages us to awaken the bravery that exists in everyone.

 That’s the beginning of growing up. As long as don’t want to be honest and kind with ourselves, then we are always going to be infants. When we begin just to try to accept ourselves, the ancient burden of self-importance lightens considerably. Finally, there’s room for genuine inquisitiveness, and we find we have an appetite for what’s out there.“ (Brach)

i like you.. you little rebel.

March 24, 2014

some rebellious favourites of mine below … be different… ya!

do not read


- Poketo: a shop for design-driven wares that take art off the gallery walls and into people’s lives.

- How to Bird of Paradise: an article I wrote for lululemon’s blog about this lovely pose and all the steps towards embodying it!

- Old Chum: sweet lil blog for everything design, art, culture and living, created by Old Faithful Shop’s owner.

- Filthy Yogi Soap: best smelling soap for a dirty hippy. Made in Hawaii by Filthy Farmgirl.

the head and the heart-guided meditation

March 12, 2014

A guided meditation prayer with spiritual teacher Adyashanti.
“Not my will, but the heart’s will be done.”


“When someone tells you, “I love you,” and then you feel, “Oh, I must be worthy after all,” that’s an illusion. That’s not true. Or someone says, “I hate you,” and you think, “Oh, God, I knew it; I’m not very worthy,” that’s not true either. Neither one of these thoughts hold any intrinsic reality. They are an overlay. When someone says, “I love you,” he is telling you about himself, not you. When someone says, “I hate you,” she is telling you about herself, not you. World views are self views—literally” (Adyashanti)

108 is the magic number..

March 3, 2014


  •  In astrology, there are 12 houses and 9 planets. 12 times 9 equals 108.
  • The chakras are the intersections of energy lines, there are said to be a total of  108 energy lines converging to form the heart chakra.
  • There are 108 pressure points in the body where consciousness and flesh  intersect to give life to the living being.
  • Some say there are 108 styles of meditation.
  • Some say there are 108 feelings, with 36 related to the past, 36 related to the present, and 36 related to the future.
  • 108 is a harshad number, which is an integer divisible by the sum of its digits.  Harshad is Sanskrit for “great joy”.
  • If one is able to be so calm in meditation as to have only 108 breaths in a day, enlightenment will come.
  • Some say there are 108 Upanishads, texts of wisdom of the ancient sages.
  • The number 108 is divided, such as in half, third, quarter, or twelfth, so that some malas have 54, 36, 27 or 9 beads.
  • The angle formed by two adjacent lines in a pentagon equals 108 degrees.
  • There are 54 letters in the Sanskrit alphabet. Each has a masculine and feminine, shiva and Shakti. 54 times 2 is 108.
  • In the Krishna tradition, there were said to be 108 gopis or maid servants of Krishna.
  • The number 108 is used in Islam to refer to God.
  • There are said to be 108 Indian goddess names.
  • In doing a practice of counting the numbers of repetitions of the mala, 100 are counted as completed. The remaining are said to cover errors or omissions. The 8 are also said to be an offering to God and Guru.
  • Some say that 1 stands for God or higher Truth, 0 stands for emptiness or completeness in spiritual practice, and 8 stands for infinity or eternity.
  • The Chinese Buddhists and Taoists use a 108 bead mala, which is called su-chu, and has three dividing beads, so the mall is divided into three parts of 36 each. Chinese astrology says that there are 108 sacred stars.
  • Meru is a larger bead, not part of the 108. It is not tied in the sequence of the other beads. It is the quiding bead, the one that marks the beginning and end of the mala.
  • The average distance of the Moon from the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Moon.
  • There are said to be 108 virtues to cultivate and 108 defilements to avoid.

get in my music..

February 25, 2014

New playlist for whatever state you’re in. in it.

Click HERE to listen in its entirety.


1. I Am Sold – James Blake

2. On the Way – Short Stories

3. Lost Where I Belong – Andreya Triana

4. What I Said – Ta-Ku

5. PBS/KAE – Tycho

6. Without You – Lapalux

7. Love Is Won – Lia Ices

8. Mad World – REM


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