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you can’t be serious: what it takes to be lighthearted..

October 22, 2014

New Blog Post HERE! (my new website) –  Enjoy xo

I contemplate the origins of my sarcasm and the ways it is shifting and changing…


Carolyn Pineapple Meditation

growing into a new website..

October 14, 2014
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Don’t you dare
Shrink yourself 
For someone else’s comfort -
Do not become small
For people who refuse to grow.
I’m moving towards a new website with trepidation. It’s a weird process to define who you are, what you offer to the world and then actually create something that expresses it. Anyway, here it is It’s still a work in progress, just like me. But I cannot shrink myself for my own comfort anymore. All content will be posted and transferred to my new site from now on. Upwards we must grow! xo

a good spot.

September 30, 2014

when I feel ____________________,   I visualize I am here:


Firekeeping – transforming the old

September 24, 2014
fireFirekeeping Practice – Transforming the Old
(from Shiva Rea’s book ‘Tending the Heart Fire’ … a powerful and clearing practice in which to enter the reflective winter months..)
As we enter into the last six weeks of the year, that which is dying and longing to be released calls for us to let go and allow it to be transformed, like dry stalks into the fire of winter’s rebirth. Create a fire in your fireplace, outdoors or in a ‘cauldron’ or iron pot that can withstand the flames – or even use a candle – to make an offering on Samhain (on Oct 31 as observed by the Celtic peoples) or during the waning nights before the new moon or in the last days of Navaratri (Hindu celebration of the mother).
In this way you can experience the liberation that death can bring as the closed fist lets go of what it has been holding on to: an old habit, thought, relationship, or process that is calling to be transformed. Write it down on a piece of paper, or symbolically infuse your offering into herbs from the land, such as sage or dried rosemary. Watch the offering burn all the way to ash. 

A prayer to light the way home…

September 14, 2014
Adorable Goddess,
These practices are a nectar I share with you.
Drink from this cup whenever you are thirsty
Or crave to be refreshed in the essence of life.
Know that this ambrosia is available to you
Everywhere, for the universe is made out of it.
Simply go to the intersection of flesh and spirit,
Breathe the tiny sparks that fly.
Within this very body
Are many gateways to the infinite,
Where incarnation and immortality
Consummate their passion for each other.
Even when the senses are turned outward,
Your attention on the external world,
Attend also to the inner throb,
The pulsing of the creative impulse within you.
Friends, relatives, neighbours, people who abide 
In your village, city, country …
Be not concerned with their attitudes 
Toward these teachings.
Everyone is discovering the intimate universe 
In their own way.
Openings to this nectar are there 
In every breath, every desire, every transition
From waking to sleeping and sleeping to waking.
Once you have set out on the path of intimacy with 
The immortal essence of life,
Never turn your back on it, my shining one.
Never turn away.
Though every moment be surprising,
Revelatory, unrecognizable and full of wonder,
Continue to cherish each breath.
Live in gratitude for the supreme nectar we imbibe
In each turning, outbreath to inbreath into outbreath.
(the end of Lorin Roche’s Radiance Sutras)

take a moment. resources to stay clear…

September 5, 2014



Some tools/events for balancing and grounding,  besides pianos and the forest-
1 – How to Meditate by Pema Chodron: An audio book of lectures from an intensive with Pema.
2 – MOMENT pop-up space, Chinatown: pop in Sept 9-14 and stop. The lulu blog has an informative article on it!
3 – step out of city life for a recharge. Yoga, meditation, forest hikes, delicious food, introspection with me on Galiano Island Oct 3-5.
4 – stay clear with clean food. Visit the Juice Truck in Vancouver, these guys are all about health,meditation and community!!

come out of the unconscious closet..

September 3, 2014

Oh longing mind,

Dwell within the depth

Of your own pure nature.

Do not seek your home elsewhere…

Your naked awareness alone,

O mind,

Is the inexhaustible abundance

For which you long so desperately.

(Sri Ramakrishna)


“Throughout September … many circumstances.. encourage us to own up to aspects of our shadow-self which may have been causing concern and allow them to show us where and how they need to be accommodated to align with the flow of life.
The problem with the shadow is that we allow it to isolate and shame us into silence. That’s why we repress it, denying the thoughts and feelings which cause so much consternation. Anger, despair, hatred, jealousy, fear, feelings of rejection, of unworthiness, any or all of these can be cast into the unconscious in order to keep our every day consciousness free of troublesome emotions. The process seems tidy and efficient, but in practice it doesn’t work so well.
“The amount of energy used trying to keep everything hidden, albeit unconsciously, is energy taken away for our own well-being. It’s like leaving an electrical appliance plugged in, using up power when we don’t need to. It’s costly and unnecessary. Energy is precious. 
“What’s funny about the unconscious is that we all have one and mostly its contents are the same as everyone else’s. The details may vary a bit, but basically it’s the usual morass of anger, lust, envy, fear etc… We’re simply hiding what we all share, but somehow, somewhere along the line we’ve adopted the belief that we are alone with these feelings and we must ensure no one finds out otherwise there’ll be all kinds of trouble!! This is how we collectively prevent others from owning up and why no one points out what’s really going on in the human psyche.
“September is a great month for normalising what we all share; for accepting, without fuss or fanfare, that we all have these strange and sometimes troublesome tendencies and it’s all part of being human, rather than a dreadful aberration with which only we have been burdened.
“Anger, jealousy, depression, hatred, despair, violent impulses, lust, whatever it is we’re not owning up to –  rest assured there are thousands out there not owning up to the same things!! It’s what makes us human! We don’t need to make a huge drama out of it, wailing and beating our chests. By simply accepting that this internal mess comes with the human territory can we instantly clear away a whole load of pain and stress! 
September can be a ‘coming out of the unconscious closet’ month and if we make it work we’ll all feel significantly more relaxed by the end of it!”



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